past, present and future

So here I am, sick Yet again, home, relaxing. Thinking a lot, maybe more dreaming than thinking.
I remember things that were in the past. PLaces, situations that made me happy. People that I loved and people that made me who I am...
I look at myself now... So different. So changed and I get scared sometimes, what if that new me will never leave and I will be stuck in a life where I am so dissatisfied with myself:/
And when I dream about future I hope for so many different things, but the most important is to be happy! TO love people around me and bless them as much as I can. TO be a light...

So I hope it will happen. I get excited about what is about to happen in my life... tehe next 3 months will be so fun... The changes... Oh I hope its the way it is supposed to be...